Tomboy to Femme Fatale

At first, I thought I was 180 or even 185, but I am actually 175!

Great!

My healthy goal weight is:

110

I have been having all these weird thoughts about numbers and sizes. Recently, I talked to a girl and she was probably an inch taller than me but…a size 1! She was just TOO small! No curves, just skinny twig legs that looked really awkward. She had a 14 year olds body and it was kind of offputting. I realize that I don’t want to be a size 0 or a size 1 anymore. I want to be a size 4 or around that. I still want muscles lol

tophatstailcoats:

Gosh darn it. Need to lose ALOT. NOW. 

I have always been inspired by actors and actresses. I want to be one of them one day and try to express myself through acting. Why shouldn’t I try? I’m 20 and I should try anything that pulls at my insides. 

I want to go for it after I finish my makeup education. On a part-time basis, take some acting classes at night. Then, slowly start to audition and see what happens!

Meanwhile, I’ll spend some time building up my makeup skills and try to get as much work makeup wise. I’ll get fit and build up my confidence as an actress and in my spare time go for auditions. Then, hopefully, I’ll land some roles and start networking. 

I also want to start my natural skincare business. I’ll do that as my main source of income along with a part-time job. (If I can get one) 

I really want to be in the biz. It’s all I have ever wanted. Always. I am going to try my hardest to make this happen…. please let this happen the way I always planned it? 

I’m about to turn 21 and I haven’t done a thing I had planned to do by this time. I am learning to keep myself accountable and go out there and work hard for the things I want. Gotta keep faith <3